I went to Mount View today, it was cold and empty, now the terrifying task of creating a home begins. As I entered each room I tried to imagine my girl living here without me. You may not understand this as I have been fighting for this for so long but I am writing this…

The house is being worked on by Croft Construction, meetings and more are happening: Families met with Social housing landlord Visits to Mount View to check out progress Electrian (Mollys big brother) doing a grand job and taking direction from the girls…. All sounds great and on track, then we were informed last week (Thursday)…

Can you ever really know what is going on inside someone’s head or mind? Can you ever really help them? Being transparent if you are able, is maybe for some the first step towards recovery and we have to believe that recovery is possible because it is! I am in touch with a person who…

It may be raining this morning but I see only blue skies, getting the keys to the house on Monday  is a huge milestone and the realisation of how human kindness can change your world. Let’s face facts where would Molly be heading without the investors? A matter I can no longer afford to dwell…

This time last year looking after Molly was becoming so increasingly difficult, I have revisited the communication book (diary) tonight and it wasn’t nice to read and remember the onset of the mania and even more upsetting to acknowledge how we were living at that time with little or no support. No wonder I have…

Today my face is aching from smiling – we have a date for getting the keys to the supported living house and today I have appointed a company to commence the work. I can’t quite believe this happening. So when ASC said “you find the social housing landlord, you find the other tenants, you appoint…

  So….I haven’t really known where to start just recently, every day brings either peace or a storm and in no particular order, expected or not expected. After a week of peace and progress I was blown away by the unexpected mood change in Molly, it frightened the life out of me literally.  I am…

Last night Molly was allowed to stay with me overnight for the first time since January the 4th, more than eight months ago. She was fine – I knew she would be as she has been consistently calm of late (apart from when there has been disturbances on the ward which in all fairness cannot…

I am happy, I am sad, I cry, I can’t cry, I feel guilty, I think f….k it I don’t actually, I feel too busy, I am bored, I want to be alone, I am lonely. I try, I can’t be bothered to try any more, I wake so early I have to go to…

This is my Mam she worries about her children like any other Mam – it’s a done deal isn’t it, it’s normal, that’s just what Mams do. We see each other regular, I take Molly to visit her every other weekend. Mam worries about me worrying about Molly. I want to see Molly in her…