I am happy, I am sad, I cry, I can’t cry, I feel guilty, I think f….k it I don’t actually, I feel too busy, I am bored, I want to be alone, I am lonely. I try, I can’t be bothered to try any more, I wake so early I have to go to…

This is my Mam she worries about her children like any other Mam – it’s a done deal isn’t it, it’s normal, that’s just what Mams do. We see each other regular, I take Molly to visit her every other weekend. Mam worries about me worrying about Molly. I want to see Molly in her…

Ever heard that term? My question is for how long, day-in day-out, month-in month-out, year-in year-out… forever? Still I learn everyday how different the autistic world is and that if you can’t stick to the plan there are going to be consequences, mood changes and anxiety levels will rise until a safeness comes and that…

Well well where to start? I saw Mollys psychiatrist tonight and you know for a moment there I thought I needed her more than Molly. No one truly understands the impact of a journey like this on the wider family. I know I personally have had to accept missed opportunities, accept rejection, sometimes accept defeat,…

Faith is the assurance of things hoped for – Hebrews 11:1. If you have been reading this blog you will know I have hoped for a long time that Molly will one day have her own home with the support she requires to live independently. Keeping faith is sometime hard and we can do often…

First things first after my fabulous week away tonight I just want to tell you about my girl, so tonight I met up with Molly, the lovely Jean and her husband Arthur at church. Molly looked so well, fashioned by Jean in a gorgeous hippy style purple top, necklace, bangles and a wee touch of…

On Saturday I will be going away with an amazing group of special people for a week of reflection and restoration (holiday). Molly will remain in hospital so in my absence I have arranged visits and outings for her every day until I am home. Knowing she will touch base with the outside world is…

Motivation is often defined as an internal or external desire to achieve a goal in life. While many types of motivation exist in the business environment, internal motivation may be thought of as an individual’s personal “drive.” I attended Mollys Care and Treatment Review today it was powerful and driven by a panel who DRIVE…

I have a lot to get off my chest this evening. The choking feeling has subsided and so now I can begin….Imagine fighting so hard for years,yes years, you are tired and realise there is yet another mountain to climb and you have to get ready again because under no circumstances can you give up!…

Sometimes we can get overloaded with our stuff and that’s ok…..things happen (one on top of the other it seems). As a new day arrives things can then often be seen in a more positive light. If I go quiet or cancel plans don’t worry I am just ‘going under’ to recharge for a while.…