This is mental or is it just me?

Well well where to start? I saw Mollys psychiatrist tonight and you know for a moment there I thought I needed her more than Molly.

No one truly understands the impact of a journey like this on the wider family. I know I personally have had to accept missed opportunities, accept rejection, sometimes accept defeat, accept I need help, accept I can’t keep on keeping on and accept this journey has cost me in mind body and soul.

If I flip the situation – it is directing my path, it is empowering me and is making me less worldly and more spiritual, more appreciative, I believe I have been called to take the hard road, to help others, to be selfless, patient, kind and strong! There is a cost but this is not ‘all for nothing’ there will be a happy ending……

I have made a difficult decision to cut my hours at work and only work 3 days a week for the next 3 months so that I can take more time to work on the next steps and ultimately make it happen!

  1. Prepare the house
  2. Find another service user
  3. Research providers
  4. Furnish the house
  5. Apply for care package
  6. Apply for Power of Attorney
  7. Apply for housing benefit

That will do for now….going the self directed route leaves all the responsibility on you – can I please just reiterate that in all this time Social Services have offered only one place (and only very recently) the offer was never going to be an option so going the self directed route is in fact our only option.

Not sure I can resume back to my full time normal working hours after the agreed period so I will think about my future once Molly has one – a future that is.

I need the time to drive this project forward and I will do what ever I need to do to make it happen. If at times I feel any doubt I remind myself of my why? Once I made this decision I felt better, I know have made the right decision – off now to cancel a few direct debits – SKY your the first to go………..

“Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations”

I think everything is going to be alright.

C x

2 thoughts on “This is mental or is it just me?

  1. I will help and support you as much as I can my dear friend. You are not alone. Cxx

    Sent from my iPhone


    1. You have done so much already! We can do this I know – can’t wait to drop my hours and concentrate – it sounds negative but I actually feel positive putting it down on the blog helps it’s like getting it all off your chest cx


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