It’s been an up and down week so far, a couple of steps back then a couple forward. I am taking Molly off the ward quite regularly now and brought her home this Saturday. This was the first time since 3pm on the 4th January that she has stepped foot inside our home – all she did was smile, really smile in fact she was beaming! I planned the second part of the visit to be elsewhere just in case she wouldn’t go back. Yet again she amazed me by taking it all in her stride and went back to Edenwood (college to Molly) with ease, what a star🌟
I believe she could now be getting ready for discharge soon so the supported living is becoming more urgent. The process is so long and complicated – I won’t go into it right now. The meeting with my lovely investors went well on Friday, they are both willing to go ahead just simply to help Molly and I will be forever thankful. Negotiations are now on the way to purchase the property in question.
I am feeling stressed knowing Molly wants to come home it is a sign of her becoming well but fills me with concern. I first applied for supported living in December 2015 and there has not been much progress to speak of since so you can maybe understand more the reason for my current concerns. If I was to fold and agree for her to return home with me then I don’t believe it would ever happen. Not agreeing does not sit well either, so for now I have an internal battle racing round inside my core….. I feel sick!
I know what I have to do to change theses feelings it’s a case of change the thoughts. Think positive and see the brighter future – Molly being set up in her own home with two other lovely girls, with great support and care, living a happy life as independently as possible. It isn’t a big ask is it? It believe it’s not. I also have to consider ‘what if I wasn’t here’ I need to know she is set up to cope without me too. I want to go to her house for tea, visit her whenever I want or fit in with her plans, her new life.
If you know of any success stories about supported living please let me know – I need to know what’s going on out there….
When I write these words I do appreciate we are all fighting battles out there, for now all my energy is focusing on Mollys health and her future. I also know our happiness should not be dependant on someone else’s but Molly and I are tied together as one and I am happy when she is, that’s just how it is.
This has all got to work out ‘no ifs no buts’
Luv C x